it all lies with it.
i'm sorry i've let you down.
sometimes i dont get it at all.
you claimed it,
but deep down, you don't ever mean it.
you try all ways,
but i'll always know what lies behind.
i tried my very best,
but reality is the only action i see.
i'm there when there is clamity,
but dead when there is celebration.
do you even understand?
what i'm going through,
and why i'm doing this?
you never will,
unless you decide to take a change,
put yourself in other people's shoe,
feel how they feel,
and understand them.
a "ship" should be pure,
as it is.
but i dont see that between us.
so why continue?
i choose to leave.
i hope you see why,
do not see the fault in others or yourself,
but what went wrong.
because i truly know,
what it is,
that lies in the soul.
i'm sorry.
it will be better without me.
miss chan says that to understand a poem, you can't base on seeing what you read, but understand what each word might mean both literally and metaphorically.