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Love
Love suffers long and is kind, Love does not envy Love does not parade itself Love is not puffed up Love does not behave rudely, it does not seek its own, it is not provoked, Love thinks no evil. Love does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth. Love, bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endure all things 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Love overcomes a multitude of sins All around.
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i just cant hold back anymore
things have not been going right. everything was a burden to me. even now, it's still a burden to me. something's weighing on my bag, i just need to let go, somehow. the past few days. many things have happen.at first was about kah hui, i controlled my tears, than it was about the ex-co, it was so stressful. i controlled my trears. than today, went for co practice,learned the new song, than not fimiliar with it yet, than emilia and i got a scolding frm the conductor. she was so harsh. we were badly hurt by her, so bad that i almost cried but i controlled, later she beat my head. I CONTROLLED. THINKING BACK NOW, I WONDERED HOW I CONTROL later she told us to go out and practice with our senior, i so wanted to cry so much. so very much. let a few tears down and CONTROLLED. after we were realesed from cca, i cried. i lean on emilia's shoulder and cry. but as we were going down, i just have to control it all, as there were many people downstairs. took bus home. almost cry again, but controlled. when i reached home, at about 845, i cried, so so badly. than kee loke sms me, so asked him to call me. while we were talking, i was like crying, crying non stop. it's like when you cry when a close relative pass away. he could tell. he could tell i was crying. but i bluff him, i said i was ok, than. really cannot take it. told him to call me ltr, and i cried and i cried. cried non-stop. managed to stop crying for a while, so sms kee loke that he cam call me now, but when we were talking half way thru. i just couldnt take it anymore, told him to call me ltr again. and now. i'm still crying. releasing all the stress and burden. its 950 plus. i have like cried for an hour plus. ALL I NEED WAS A HUG when i saw you hugging kah hui, I KNEW I NEEDED THAT HUG SO MUCH. but in the end i did not get. I WISH THAT I'M NOT BORN INTO THIS WORLD. cant continue, i'm not gonna fight against my burden, my stress. letting it take over me, my life and my soul. I'M TIRED
today is like a normal school day except it was a little more thriling and tired.. for home econs, we made chicken pie today. i had so much fun roling the dough and making the ingredient, haha but almost all credit goes to lim yu cheng. haha he helped me quite alot. than we were like released late cause our dough just wont bake! and we were late for our exco meeting. so so embarrasing. we planned it and yet we were late. all exco members i'm so so sorry..than we discuss about the duty rooster and the decoration of the class. than it was like 3 plus, so we went to buy materials for the decoration. than we helped some of the classmates help to buy drink. and i was like carrying the materials in one hand, 4 cups of bubble tea. it was like so heavy lah. than edison and khair tag along, but khair dont even bother to help take frm me and edison take the materials which weigh so light lah. than when reach back school, my hands were red and my arms hurt.ok we went back school. i went to classroom. tell them what to do than ran down to do the history project than yu cheng called say no paper so i ran up than explain and tell them than ran all the way down than go up again. and this time is final. and it was frm the 3rd story to the first, and the first to the third. SO TIRING. than it was raining heavily, so i called my daddy to pick me.. he picked me at 7. and everyone left at 6 except kee loke and khair. they accompamnied me. than i caused tham to be drenched. I'M SORRY AND THANK YOU. ya than now at home. still need to do duty rooster and science homework!
woohoo! our English and PE teacher is MR LAWRENCE. it's so meaningful and wonderful. woohoo. haha. a little insane. after all the waiting. emilia, rebecca, yu lynn, kah hui and i went to macdonalds for lunch. haha. than i went for tuition. i sms my father what time he would fetch me.. he replied as 6.15. i think he forgotten. he came at 7.35. so i think i wated for like I HOUR 25 MINUTES. and was so scarry.. like no sense of security. but ltr daddy came. so was safe. going back to the old days
today,we return to school again. and,my face was like super RED. and ltr when we practised the walking part again, we were under the sun, than it got worse. but with God's blessing, i was ok than. our form teacher is no other than Mr Gan. he's quite nice lah.QUITE FUNNY TEACHER dont worry, i think he will be a good teacher.. anyway our class is well known as the noisiest class lah. but he should be able to handle us.LOOKING SO PROFESSIONAL(: than during recess, met cheryl, she asked wheter can stay back to help pain the banner,well, i was so happy lah. at least got something to do. so cheryl's dad fetch her and kai shing to buy the materials needed. we waited for them for very LONG. but they very xin ku. so we must not complain. haha. than kai shing started doind the outline. and cheryl started painting. than mr... came, and our moods were like spoilt by him. but we soon got over it. than went to the d n t room there to do. the teachers there were super good. they provided us with alot of things. so kind of them. than geraldine helped us. i tell you, the banner is super nice lah. all efforts were like from kai shing, cheryl and maureen. they're the BEST! finally uploaded the photos..
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